Young fools destined to fall in love

This has been a rough week, followed up by an even rougher weekend. Work was hard, and long, and there were a lot of tedious little details that I had to deal with. Brien had been very busy and unavailable, so it was kind of stressing me out that he was not around to talk to, but that I can cope with. On Friday he came over and dropped the bomb on me.

Brien has decided for whatever reason that he does not want to pursue a life with me. He broke off the relationship, gave me a slew of the usual cliches and told me that he "still wants to be my best friend". If nothing else I'm left more confused than anything else. Yeah I'm devastated to have the love of my life walk out on me like that, but confused as to why he would do it. He gave me a couple of excuses that didn't really make any sense but nothing that I can really sit down and process.

Saturday was a long day. I ended up spending most of the day with my friend Ryan and just trying to reset my self, and make sense of everything. Most of Sunday was spent in bed still trying to make sense of the world. I'm not sure where things are going to go from here, but hopefully I'll get a chance to talk to Brien and we can sit down and really figure out what went wrong. It's really hard to see the love of your life walk away from something beautiful and not give so much as a single reasonable word as to why.

I guess from all of this I learned a lesson. I can take comfort in the fact that we are still friends, and figure things out for myself later.