Processing...

The last couple of days have passed in a blur. Since finding out about Bear I’ve spent a lot of time watching movies numb on my couch trying to wrap my head around the fact that he’s not going to be around any more. I’ve been finding out a lot about Bears internal struggle and it bothers me that he did not let people know about what was happening to him. I wish that there was a way I could have helped.

Today the funeral is out in Maple Valley at noon. I’m starting to get ready to go, not really sure what to expect. I’m thinking if nothing else it will be good to talk to some of his old friends. I think it will also be good for Skype to go home for an afternoon so he can romp around with his brothers and sisters for a couple of hours.

It’s been good being home with Skype. We are bonding beautifully and I’m amazed as I watch him grow and learn before my eyes. He has been helpful to me in this difficult time – it’s nice to have something warm, fuzzy, and affectionate to love on when you are not doing well.